Tuesday, December 30, 2014

A letter for my beloved

dear you,
My mind can't work so good know. All I wanna say that I want you. Please say that you want me too. Leave her because she not the truth. I swear you will disappointed if you let me go.
Can I ask you something? Why you said all that shit if you never have felling for me. Why you always help me out. Why you act like me the only girl make you live? why?
then you say that you have a girl. then you say that you love that girl. what is that mean.
you make me confuse.
First time you said that I am not like the other girl. you say that I'm special one, then you said you my friend. I remember that you ever said to other that you are my boy. then you always by my side. always there for me. you the sweetest. you make me fall for you. I'm crazy about you.
if you know just a second not see your face, I die. but I can do nothing. because we just friend. then we meet again. we getting closer, and closer. I let my self fall to you. I wanna say that I want stand beside you. I really do.
Then that happen. you say you have a girl since the first time we met. you say you love her. please don't do this. I want you.  I don't know how to make it right. I don't care about the world because all I want is you. why you do this to me?
am I ever hurt you? why you hate me so bad. You make me fall in love to you then you just go with another girl. I never understand that. am I ever doing something wrong? am I ever said something hurt you? am I?
I really don't understand but you take a step. you left me and I just standing here. in the first place we meet. this place throw my dream to be with you. I really hurt. this thing messing me up. I can't think right.
I will learn how to let you go. I will learn to happy when you happy with her. I do. I really hope your happiness. and sooner or letter you will forget. or maybe you never remember. maybe our story just illusion, maybe that never happen. maybe me hope to much.
I will let time cure this broken. maybe someday we can smile to each other or maybe we like people never know each other. I don't know. I will try the best I can do...
but I always thank for you who came to my live and teach something worth....

December 31th, 2014
sincerely

your just friend