You've married?!!! you are...

My friend said that you were married. I don't wanna believe it. First because I already move on. I think I can let you go. but than you come to my life again, remain me the feeling. I can't, I can not stop loving you. After that you will never marry anyone because you just for me.
I the middle of the night when I really miss you, I see your wedding picture. Yes, you are. You married. I can believe you choose that awful girl than me. You know her face just like my crazy neighbor who stay next my room. So awful!!! but you choose her.
You know I try my best to be somebody who deserve to you. and if you remember you have asked me a question about what I wanna be, I gonna answer it someday. but now it useless. maybe this is my huge mistake. let you down.
Yes, I know that you deserve to be happy and you belong to somebody. and I guess that somebody is me. I want you, sometime I call you just to hear your voice. to fulfill the empty of my heart.
but now i have nothing. i am nobody have nothing to keep stand to face the day.
I miss you. I try so hard to erase this feeling from the beginning but it's always there. i try to push you away but you always here, in my heart even in my mind.
I know you don't even think of me. I the one who gone just like that. I want be a better person who deserve for you. I want to be a better person when I proudly answer that stupid question, but at the end of the day, when the sun goes down and the night come up, I realize that I just a looser have nothing to left.
I started it. I the one who make it happen and now I end up miserable.
I don't want watch romans anymore. that make me so pity to my own life and the worst part is it never happen in my life. I know romans only in movie. the true maybe happen but not work for me.
I sleep much make me think less and spent hurt day so fast. I don't need to think about you. you know when I nod my head to left and you mirror it. I hate that I always remember you when I doing that. When you joke about I run around the class. and other stupid thing. all stupid thing.
You already move on with your own. And here I am, pick up all the past and wish that mistake never happen. When I just gone from you without saying anything. I was a little girl who didn't know how to show you what I feel. when I grow up and wanna tell you its too late.
I happy for you. I do. I hope you have wonderful life. Hope the girl know how lucky she is to have  you, I always wish your life happily ever after...