Question for you

Can I ask you to hold me tight?
when I ask that will you do it right
take me on your side

maybe not because you are not mine
I can't that even just imagination
you have somebody else

can I ask you why you treat me that special
that make thing I am your number one
and she your past history and will gone

maybe you don't meant it
but I know you also feel it

Do you know that you crush me
why you not kill me
am I doing something make you hate me
then torture me

my ear recognize your voice
my smile up when you around
my heart so warm when you with me
but you are not mine
and will never
somebody else taken you
somebody else have you

why you not just killing me
I like alive in fake life
always laugh when I want to cry
act fine but I already die
enjoy all suck thing
are you make fun of me
you get my heart then you throw it away
do you realize that I always cry

Do you know what I want?
I want to hate you but every time I meet you I forgive you
I want to forget you but there is so much memory about you
I want to let you go but every time I see your face I never could
I want you know that you are the one for me
I want you know and hold me
I want you just with me
I want you so badly

Denpasar, February,  2nd 2015

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Standing alone

I standing here alone
I starting thinking about time has gone
I begun to cry
I begun going crazy

Time already flew, nothing left in my side
you gone just like that
like there is nothing happen
or maybe I though that happen but its never

So funny when we look at each other
I see u fine but I should try
try so hard to make everything look fine
hold my heart not to beat

From the first time you told me u have girl
then u made I felt be the special one
but never be your girl
and everything so fun

Yes, this my fault fall in to you
my mine know what to do
but my heart  jump out every time I look at you
naturally be around you
whatever you ask I always say no
I couldn't say yes, wish you know

but truth is true and I am not your
then you gone with your girl and I standing here
keep my feet stand well
keep laughing like a bell
act like there is nothing wrong is hell

Yes, this is my fault fall in love
now my heart broken like a glass
I put it one by one make it stick together like before
but I never success

there is a big hole now
try to full fill but I don't know how
try to remain what I do before met you
try enjoy all day without you
try as good as I could

and when I standing here alone again
I cry then going crazy
I can't let you go to be my history
but I can't hold you beside me
I just nobody

I never regret about this time
but let you coloring my day is wrong
since the first time you are not mine
I can't do anything but let you gone

can't willing you with another girl not me
hope you not happy and go back to me
realize that I your somebody
not friend certainly

but I can't compete her because she is the one
and I standing here alone
I starting thinking about time has gone
I begun to cry
I begun going crazy
then I stop do that even I can't

Denpasar, February,  2nd 2015

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